Sometimes the uncertainty of not knowing the answer to what you are seeking still brings the peace of having at least 2 possiblities. When you finally get that answer and you are faced with only 1 possiblity, it suddenly brings to light not only how hopeful you were but how much you miss having the option of 2 outcomes.
Having said that, my nurse called to let us know that the pregnancy test is negative. As you can imagine, I am completely devastated, heartbroken and filled with sorrow. I don't understand why this didn't work for us and why we can't have a baby.
I'm so grateful that my friend from work traded days with me today so I don't have to face this news while trying to remain professional. I am also thankful beyond words for my amazing husband who just sent me a text that said, "As long as I have you, I will be fine. You're more important to me than any child."
I don't know what this means for our future plans, but I do know that my doctor said this was our last chance at this, unless we use donor eggs, which we aren't prepared, emotionally or financially to explore right now. We will continue to take this one day at a time and decide what to do from there.
Please continue to pray for us both as the next few days will be very difficult for us both. Thank you so much for all of your prayers and support up to this point. It has meant so much to us knowing there have been so many people "rooting" for us.
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